A father has opened up about his relationship with his son as he admitted he doesn’t think he will ever be able to like him.
As the anonymous father explained in a Medium essay, he thinks his son is a great kid who is not only well-spoken but also smart and kind.
Nevertheless, the dad admitted he “couldn’t care less” about his son as he said he “has no interest in him” despite being his father.
“I didn’t see him for nearly six months [during lockdown], and I did not care in the slightest. I got sent photos and videos of him, 99 per cent of which I didn’t even bother to look at,” the father admitted in a brutally honest message.
“I never got that whole overwhelming, unconditional love that everyone talks about. He was just another person to me. I told myself it’s just because he’s a baby.
“As he grows up, we’ll bond, but that never happened, then I told myself it’s just because he can’t talk or communicate properly.
“However, then he could talk, and still, nothing changed. Each year I keep making excuses as to why I feel like this, trying to justify it by a lack of communication, or he’s too young for us to really do anything together. Each year I have to move those goalposts further until now I’m at a point where I don’t think I’ll ever like him.”
As the father admitted, he doesn’t know the reason behind his lack of care for his son. He insisted, however, that he takes good care of him and looks after him when he sees him.
“I take him to the park and stuff and do things with him, he’s really quite a happy young lad, but again, I do these things out of pure obligation, I don’t want to do them, I don’t enjoy spending time with him,” he added.
According to the writer of the post, he stayed in his son’s life because he never wanted the boy to grow up without his father like he did when he was younger.
“I don’t really know what to do, and I’ve never spoken to anyone about this, so sorry for the wall of text it’s all just spilling out,” the father penned.
“I want to love my son; I want to have that relationship that I never had with my dad… but at the same time, I feel like I’m forcing something that isn’t there.”
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