A 20-year-old man from West Yorkshire left behind a touching final message that he shared on Facebook shortly before taking his own life.
“I don’t know what to do anymore,” Kieran Lister wrote on December 12, adding that he recently split with his beloved girlfriend and that it wasn’t her fault.
The entire post, which he requested Facebook not to delete, read:
“I don’t know what to do anymore. My girlfriend of over 2 years (yes you may think it’s a short period) has decided we aren’t good for each other anymore – 2 years is a long time to bond, to be happy with.
“Now we are separating I don’t feel like I can cope without her full love any longer. She was and still is my everything. I don’t think I will be able to get over this. I don’t want to wait till I get over the situation because she’s the only one that’s ever made me truly happy.
“This isn’t her fault at all, we both just weren’t right for each other in the end. I did a lot of bad in the relationship that may have led up to this. From day one to the end, I should have cared the same as I did during happy times.
“I guess people slowly move apart from each other and I would do anything to stop this but it’s something that I have no control over.
“I know I’m being selfish considering I have my two families, my dog Snoop, my reptiles & my princess (girlfriend’s name).
“I’d like to wish upon everyone to listen to these last wishes.
“To remember the good times I shared with people I’d like my favorite song to be played for me – Lion King’s ‘Circle of Life’. I would like someone to look after snoop for me until he joins me. He’s looked after me through hard/good times and I’m sure he will look after whoever chooses to take it upon them.
“The flat and car I own is now (girlfriend’s name). Use my bank account to pay for it & the clothes I have that are worth money, eBay them to get more for it (don’t throw them it’s pointless).
“Once you have enough money to get a place better, make sure you are moving out with someone that cares. That won’t just be there for the meantime, then move out but please take the photo on the wall with you.
“Please sell all my belongings, like consoles and everything that’s worth something, the furniture, once you are done with, give to someone else that’s in need and looking for somewhere to live. I wish everyone to look after each other, stop falling out and remember how precious life is.
“The presents I have bought (girlfriend’s name) they’re in a loft, take them and have a good Christmas, a happy one. It’s what I want & a lot of thought went into them.
“As I’m writing this upset and I can see snoop feeling the pain I’m feeling while whining (either that or he’s hungry lol)
“I’m sorry to all the people I have hurt, let down and just generally upset. If I could I’d make everyone forgive me but I’m not god. Yet. I am not a believer of god, I’m just imagining someone powerful, who’s indestructible. I wish I was.
“Please Facebook, don’t take my post down. The reason I’m writing this on Facebook is that maybe this note will leave an eye opener to the people that are looking for happiness, something I’ve looked for my whole life. I want my family and friends to read this and to know, I care. I love everyone so dearly. I’m out. Don’t try to save me it’s what I want.
“Let’s play hide and seek but never stop looking for true happiness.”
Following the release of his message, Kieran’s touching Facebook post received thousands of reactions and comments from people who understood the pain he was going through.
Later on that day, December 12, the West Yorkshire Police spokesperson released a tragic statement that read:
“At 7.42pm on Monday, December 12, police received a call expressing concerns for the welfare of a 20-year-old man who had gone missing from his home in Churwell and had last been seen earlier in the day.
“Enquiries were carried out and searches conducted and the man was found dead in the Cottingley area at about 1.40am on Tuesday. The death is not being treated as suspicious and the Coroner’s Office has been informed.”
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