Allison Holker is sharing a devastating discovery about her late husband Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss.

She shared how it was one of the hardest days of her life as she started to prepare for his funeral. He passed away after taking his life at the age of 40 while staying alone at a motel.

Weeks after his death, she found out that he was taking drugs and that could be one reason for his sudden thoughts of ending his life.

The danger uncovered a large stash of cornucopia drugs including mushrooms, pills, and a host of other substances that she had never ever seen or heard of.

These were all found hidden inside shoeboxes and that left her heartbroken because she had no idea. She shared more about the matter and how he was certainly never the type to suddenly go off and kill himself.

“People kept saying he was suffering from depression and serious mental illness”- she added. But it was all just so puzzling for her. Now that she’s finally been able to put all the pieces of the puzzle together, she claims that what happened makes sense.

Sharing more details in an exclusive interview with PEOPLE, she mentioned that this was a huge triggering moment for her because she found quite a few things inside the closet.

“I had no idea that these existed until now”- the star added. She found it alarming and had to share it with the family who denied her allegations and are now slamming her for going public with the news.